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I haven't written on the thing in forever, and I know I always say that I am going to keep up with it, and I don't.  Whatevs, I'm a busy little 28 year old.  So, what's going on in life right now? Well, I'm working two jobs and training for a half marathon in the middle of February, and living the life that has been placed in front of me.

I haven't done any paintings or taken many pictures in a while, I miss it.

I actually had a conversation with a really good friend of mine last night that sometimes I just want to be 'unavailable'.  In a world that revolves around social media and technology, it is really nice sometimes to just disconnect and be within your own head.  Like how we used to be growing up.  My mom would throw me in the backyard and tell me to "find something to do".  It caused us to become creative individuals and use our imaginations instead of our toys to expand our minds.  [..back to the convo...] So my friend said that it would be nice to just get away from her phone, but that when she got bored, she would just pick up her phone and eventually want to talk to someone and fill that mini "void".  I countered by saying that I don't think I could.  I would want to "find something [else] to do" instead of turning on my phone.  Like PAINT SOMETHING or read a book or go outside and take some pictures.  I feel like the millennial generation needs to get back to that.  We are too connected.  We aren't private enough.  Sometimes I think we need to be.  Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my twitter, instagram, Facebook and my tumblr, but when you get to a point that you are doing it just to do it and you actually aren't learning anything, it's time to [in the words of my dear Liz Lemon] "SHUT IT DOWN".  I think this is something I am going to try and do in the new year, along with reading the new books I keep buying and not reading and talking to my family on the reg.

thanks for reading my weird thoughts of the day.  Who knows when i'll be back.  May be tomorrow, may be next year.  Til next time, CU L8R!

xoTW

Well hello there...

So, it has been way too long since I've sat down and actually wrote an entry on this thing.  I remember the process I used to go through to try and figure out what I wanted to post-trying not to sound like too much of a girly girl, but an interesting, well rounded human being-but now it seems like such a far fetched idea all together.

I keep finding myself giving people the excuse that I am just "too busy" for everything.  Too busy to paint, too busy to upload those pictures from Thanksgiving, too busy to catch up with old friends.  But honestly, I just don't want to.  I am, in fact, not busy at all.  I've been finding myself in quite the rut lately.  I've still been working out and being sociable and what not, but the things that I am passionate about have definitely been put on the back burner.  It is creating some sort of internal struggle which in turn causes me to feel like I'm moving into a depression- which, I'll be honest, is probably not even in my nature as I can find a piece of trash on the side of the street as beautiful, but I digress- and I don't like it.  I've said on here before that I am a happy person.  I always find the positive in things and pride myself on that.  I must get back to that.  I must be happy.

I think this whole rut thing has a lot to do with my current (and never wavering) relationship status. "Awesome, party of ONE."  ugh, like I can't even keep a normal relationship with my phone before I start thinking about cuddling with it.  I'm 27, still single, and have no* prospects in the works.  Is it me?  I'm starting to think it is.  All of these amazing creatures out there and still can't find one that wants to deal with my annoying habits (like my obsessive relationship with Q-Tips).  I have a lot to offer.  I like sports, like A LOT, I'm a decent cook, I can clean (sometimes) and am pretty much one of the most diverse people ever.  I can always step out of my comfort zone and have a good time.  Who knows?  I'm tired of wondering.  Maybe I'll just get a cat.


Ehh...I'll just have another glass of wine and deal with it I guess.

Just needed to vent, sorry if I TOTALLY wasted your time..

xoTW

dip dip dippin dot....

my crazy wonderful friends that i met in college gave me that wonderful nickname...dippin dot. i have no idea where it came from, or what started it, but to this day, those friends still call me that.  i think it went something like:
tiffany >> tippany >> dippany >> dip dip >> dipps >> dippin dot  [[um,we like ice cream??!?!!]]

yeah, my friends are definitely interesting, and i am truly blessed to have such great ones in my life...love you guys :]


anyway, if you have ever seen me in person, you know that i love to wear patterns...particularly stripes and polka dots.  i honestly did a load of laundry once of just things with stripes, and it almost filled the washing machine.  i don't know what it is, but i'm just drawn to stripes.  i feel the same way about polka dots.  i have at least 10 things in my closet with dots on them.  accessories, too.  so, i guess what i am trying to say is that my nickname is fitting. get it? ok, good.
sorry.
anyway, i was reading my blog list today and i saw the most amazing thing in the whole wide world....POLKA DOTS WERE FEATURED AS A NEW TREND!  now, mind you, i don't really care what VOGUE has to say about fashion, because i kind of just wear what i want to anyway, but i do look there for advice sometimes (i mean, honestly, what girl doesn't?).  well i just wanted to share that...here is the article and some other little ditties that i found while shopping online that i think that i must have.

source: VOGUE on tumblr

i found these on modcloth.com....

i wish i could show you what they look like, but it doesn't seem to be letting me post the picture.

source: whowhatwear

AHH!! stripes and polka dots! i'm in heaven! source

ok, ok fine..i will stop...i just can't wait to go shopping now!!! 

have a great day! and just keep on keepin' on :)

xoTW

coffee shop confessions

i have been thinking about quite a few things in the past couple of days.  lots and lots of things going through this overcrowded brain of mine and i just need to let some of them out.

1. i am SO single, it is mildly depressing.  mind you, when i was in college, this was very ideal for me.  i could do whatever i wanted, see whom ever i wanted, and just be happy by myself.  now, however, at the ripe old age of 25, it is starting to super suck.  all of my friends are like married (and if they aren't, they are happily engulfed in their courting lives that they are practically married with no room for the single friend [boohoo] *cue tiniest violins in the world playing the saddest song you can imagine*) or they have adorable children that aunt tiffany can play with and them give them back to mommy when i need a nap.  the back story to all of this is that my good for nothing ex-boyfriend and i had all of this until he decided he wanted to be the biggest turd nugget in the world and break my heart.  i mean, i thought i was going to spend the rest of my life with this guy and everything, and then one day, BOOM, "this" isn't what he wants anymore. so all of those plans of having someone to be next to at night, coming home to after a long day at work, someone to bring to "couple night" at the friend's place...all of that is now non-existent.  i honestly thought that i was never going to be single again.

no matter though.  everything happens for a reason, right? i am definitely a firm believer in that, for sure.  this time alone has allowed me to do some "soul searching" and start to figure out what i would like to do with myself in the future.  things haven't been easy, constantly hearing your thoughts can be exhausting sometimes, but everyone needs that every now and then.  i have to say though, that having this time for myself has given me the opportunity to be creative and do the things that i enjoy. which brings me to these: 

yes, yes i know i have been promising them for a while, and now i am FINALLY getting the time to be able to post them.  and i will post more soon :)

2.  i'm ready to move on with my life, but not sure where to go.  i've lived in the same place my entire life, and i'm ready to get out.  i have MANY options, just not sure which the best one is for me right now.  but what i do know is that if i don't leave soon, i may never get out of here.  truth be told, i really don't like my job.  i'm stuck in an office all day with no windows, a smelly kid, and no speakers on my computer.  it really is not the ideal job situation for someone like me.  i am a people person who loves to be outside and who loves listening to music all the time and considering i'm at work for 8 hours a day in what i would consider a jail cell, it sucks.  and i understand that at right now i just need to get my experience and move on (like it is a girl scout badge or something) but it is really lame.  what would i like to do with myself, you ask?  well, to be perfectly honest with you, i would love to be able to sit in my dream house (lots of windows, filled with pretty vintage things and lots of natural light), listen to great music all day, and create.  create paintings, beautiful pictures, and be completely broke but unbelievably happy.  me and my doggie, living the dream :) but, alas, we do not live in a perfect world, and for now, this will not be happening.  but i have made  promise to myself that this will happen soon, very soon - if not for my sanity, then for my personal growth.  oh! also, i would love to go to art school [so cliche, i know...].

which brings me to my last and final thought of the day....

3. my shuffle was INCREDIBLE today.  so i want to share the songs with you.  now, you don't have to like it, but if you have the time, just listen to some of the songs.

1.  it iz what it iz-M.I.A
2.  you got me - THE ROOTS ft. ERYKAH BADU
3.  i can talk - TWO DOOR CINEMA CLUB
4.  memories (ft. kid cudi) - DAVID GUETTA
5.  undercover martyn - TWO DOOR CINEMA CLUB
6.  anyway you choose to give it - THE BLACK GHOSTS
7.  rockstar 101 - RIHANNA
8.  abracadabra - STEVE MILLER BAND
9.  give me everything - PITBULL ft. NE-YO, AFROJACK, & NAYER
10.  motivation - KELLY ROWLAND ft. LIL' WAYNE
11.  dory's day out - GARAGE A TROIS
12.  ohh la la - GOLDFRAPP
13.  hideaway - MYSTERY JETS (DIPLO EDIT)   

well, thats it right now....hope you guys enjoy :)
i'm off to go "stumble" the night away!

xoTW

lunch breaks are cool

so, since i'm at work and on my lunch break i figured i would do something somewhat productive (well for me anyway, not for my boss) and post something! :]
taking pictures is a huge passion of mine, and you can ask anyone that knows me that i literally have a camera with me every where that i go-whether it be my phone, my digital point and shoot, or my Nikon.  i absolutely love taking pictures.  i enjoy seeing the beauty all around me, whatever that may be (i mean, seriously, i take pictures of EVERYTHING) and capturing it in a picture so i can go back to that memory whenever i want.  yes, i am that creepy kid that you see taking pictures of everything and i am NOT ashamed to admit it.  i also love editing pictures.  not that pictures in their original forms aren't majestic, i just want them to look like i want them to look.  when i take a picture, i imagine it specifically how i want it to look.  when i get to my computer, i do just that! it is such an amazing feeling to be able to see your visions happen right before your eyes.
with that said, my favorite types of pictures are black and white and the ones that were taken back in the 50's and 60's.  the coloring on old photos just amazes me and i love the way that the natural light is captured and displayed in the prints.  i also love photos with lots and lots of saturation, deep shadows, and large depth of field.  
but i digress, because i do have a point.
everyone these days seems to be a photographer.  with the invention of the iPhone, editing software & apps, and great cheap digital cameras, the ability to create amazing photos is at every person's fingertips.  now i by no means am a professional photographer, but i do have a pretty huge obsession with taking pictures.  i have books, i follow blogs, blah blah blah.  so i would have to say that i have somewhat of a good grasp on the concept then say the iPhone photographer, but by no means am i tooting my own horn.
speaking of iPhones, yes, i do have one, and yes i do use it for my camera sometimes.  well i use the app called instagr.am which I LOVE VERY MUCH.  its got great filters and great settings, its very user friendly, and its FREE!!! (which is awesome) but i took these with my iPhone, and i wanted to share them with you.hope you like! :)







have a wonderful day :]
xoTW

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It's true. I think way too much. I over think. I under think. I think about things when I try to sleep. I think about my dreams. I think about situations and how they play out. I think about body language, movement, and facial expressions. I think about the unknown. I think about what's right in front of me. I think about the future. I think about the past. I think about the present. I think about people. I think about people watching. I think about how to not be creepy when I people watch. I think about happiness. I think about sadness. I think about anger. I think about LOVE (and wonder if I'll ever find it again). I think about hate. I think about birth I think about life. I think about death. I think about blessings. I think about curses. I think about what I should do. I think about what I shouldn't do. I think about consequences. I think about rewards.


I'm a chronic over-thinker. I always have been and sadly enough, I'm pretty sure I always will be. It's a blessing and a curse. I don't like it and I don't hate it. Sometimes, though, I just wish I could make it stop.




xoTW

please forgive me...

i have been a terrible blogger...making all of these promises and not keeping them, neglecting my poor little blog, etc.  but to be perfectly honest with you, i have been so busy that blogging is the last thing that i want to do when i get home from work.  unfortunately, even my paint and wonderful camera have been neglected. :(
i certainly hope to get back on track with this stuff, because it helps ignite my creative drive, so please forgive me and just bear with me while i try and get my butt in gear.

i did, however, make a tumblr:
skinnypinksuspenders.tumblr.com
and i update that often because its so easy to do so...much like twitter (@tirowe)

but i digress, i will certainly TRY and update more, and hopefully get around to getting some pictures up.
also, i was looking at my blog and it seems sort of drabby these days...so a makeover is in order for that too.

love. love. love.
xoTW